yay exams are almost over... i can almost taste it yum yum haha... tho today was like after exam feeling liao haha... tho i went to sch and got laughed at by aakash and gobs. hiahz sad life :( of all the days to suddenly be able to contribute to a match, silvestre just had to score against liverpool lah. wadeva.

anyway my brother really makes me so angry sometimes. i understand y pple look up to him and like admire him cos he looks cool and acts cool but please ok noone try to be like him.as in. i love my bro... i really do and he makes me laugh and i guess i do look up to him in a way. its like he casts some kind of spell over people, i guess its called charisma... like when hes talking pple listen to him and laugh at him and like want to talk abt him and emulate him... but when u have that kind of gift you shld use it for good right? not to use people.cos thats what he does. hes a total user and hes so selfish lah... he like expects things to be given to him all the time and hes so nice until u do something he doesnt want you to do or if u dun give in to him or listen to him or follow his way he will shout and scream and just force his way onto people. its like i know that hes not a very nice person on the inside but i still love him lah... i have like never known him in all the yrs ive known him to do something unselfish for soemone... like sure he can be nice and stuff but its for his own amusement. and its like i see the way he treats my parents and im really disgusted lah. not as if im the perfect daughter or wad but like hes really... i dunno how to put it. like he doesnt care abt them at all they are just there to give him a house and food and cable tv so he can watch soccer and like invite his friends over. i mean maybe its not true but frm what i see they are just money to him and not as if they arent good parents lor... i think they are and me and stef are fine with them... its like he din even care tt his gf was rude to them until they complained to him and even then he din pay much heed...and like not say we are very super rich or wad and we are all trying to save electricity like switching on the air con less and stuff and of cos he cant be bothered... just leaves it on the whole day. even when he is not there he forget to switch off and he totally cant be bothered and his excuse is tt hes in the hostel most days so he dun use the aircon like that is so dumb lah... he think hu is the one paying for his hostel fees???.i cant stand how people look at him and think that oh hes so cool hes so smart and funny and blah blah. i cant stand it but the thing is i cant help but think that too.of cos i know that i take advantage of my parents too like i always get them to drive me arnd and stuff... but the thing is, i appreciate it and i know that im so lucky to have them but i really doubt that he does. maybe im wrong... i dunno. but its so hard to think the best of him when everything he does shows the opposite.